Rejected abandoned 


**trigger warning

some thoughts associated with the feeling of being rejected and abandoned…. 

I am worthless, I will forever be alone…if anyone is near me, they really only do it out of pity.. I am stupid for opening up, I’m stupid for sharing my feelings, they mean nothing, to no one..so what is the point of opening and letting them out

I’m empty and alone. Why would anyone care for me? We’re all alone, we can trust no one. Sharing means losing, means giving up a part of self, means letting others in.. And that makes self weak and lost..drowning in the sea, being caught in the current, taken under the waves

Alone, vulnerable and alone… Forever alone, worthless … What’s the point of opening and feeling? Emotions are stupid and only lead to misery..they will laugh at your emotions at your sharing at your opening and getting close… They will laugh at your vulnerability they will abandon you. You’re a joke that they laugh at… Or even worse, you’re nothing, not even worth laughing at, not even worth being mentioned, you don’t really exist 

If the ones that were supposed to love you didn’t why would anyone else? If the ones that were supposed to be there for you weren’t why would anyone else?

It doesn’t matter how many nice things you do for others they will always leave they will always abandon you. It doesn’t matter if you’re there for them or trying to be they will always leave and you will always be alone ….so why be afraid, since you know that you will always be alone..so why bother with anything since you will always be alone 

Always afraid that you keep hoping that sometimes opening up could lead to something nice, that will turn to dust and you will be again alone empty 

Empty alone..you come into this life alone, you leave this life alone… 

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